Single Fragile Hope

I called to you through the dark of space
I looked for your eyes in every face
A thousand thousand lonely nights
Spent searching for your light
I spent the whole of my life getting beaten, getting broke
This belief in you my single fragile hope
These bouts of depression were when I felt your pain
The untethered joys were your laughter in my brain
In my half of our soul, I felt you every single day
But like all dreams, I couldn't make you stay
Now here your are, just a little too late
The ultimate symbol of my hateful fate
I already threw it away, quit believing in you
I swallowed their pills because I had to
So the pain of your absence became untrue
What would you have had me do
Now you're here, but I am gone 
I guess I'll never hear your song 
Take this soul, what's left at least 
And be a whole person, be your whole self
A long time ago, I'd have been just what you need
But now "we" are a chapter that I'll never read